…and we are once again at the start of a fresh new month. And hopefully the new month will also bring along some new much-needed energy as well. Not to sound too repetitive, but things at work has been absolutely crazy and I am completely exhausted. As a result , I have been neglecting my writing. Outside of a few exercises for the writing workshop, I have not done any writing at all. Even my blog has been devoid of any new content for weeks, the first time this happened since I started this blog. Obviously, NaNoWriMo has been a colossal failure, as I ended with only a couple of hundred words I wrote in the beginning, and which I will discard anyway.
I did feel guilty and slightly ashamed about it, but the truth is, as much as I love to write, writing is also very stressful for me. It’s not something I do to relax and it often keeps me awake at night while thinking about it. With the way things are going at work, I really had to temporarily step away from writing if I didn’t want to have a burn-out. Well, you can accuse me for giving more priority to work above writing, but that’s the choice I’ve made. I can live with that, as long as I remember to return to writing once things return to more normal. I’m starting to feel slightly better again since yesterday, so the tone of this post is actually somewhat positive. If I had written this post a week ago, it would have taken on a decidedly whiny tone instead, and I would have been spewing my displeasure about lots of different stuff.
So now what’s the plan for the following months? I will take it easy for work for the remainder of the week, which in my case means working 9 hours a day, and try not to think about it at all once I’m home. I actually decided that just an hour ago, as I wanted to work again tonight, but I felt that I need to start writing again, even if it is as nonsensical as writing about not writing. I hope to sustain that feeling for the next couple of days, just to get back into the habit again, especially now that the workshop has ended (I still need to post the last exercise, which is a revision). I thought about doing an individual NoWriMo this month, but I decided that’s probably not a good idea. I think I will take one some of the exercises I’ve done instead, and turn them into a short story. There are a few of them that I really do like, so it will be interesting to see where I can take them without worrying too much about what’s in the exercise.
After this week? It’s back to full steam ahead mode at work until the end of the year, and then a couple of weeks of normal mode before going on holidays. Hopefully when I’m back, I will be able to welcome some new colleagues who will replace the ones who have left recently, and obviously I will then spend a lot of time at work again. My aim is that by the end of March next year, I will have accomplished most of what I set out to do, after which things will calm down again, or as close to calming as possible, as my personal experience is that things never completely calm down within the telecoms industry.
This does not mean I plan to neglect my writing again until the end of March. Now that I’m slowly getting back on track, I have to make sure it doesn’t slip away again. It probably requires a better scheduling than what I’m used to, but then again, we’ll see how it goes. I find that things normally turn out better anyway if I don’t worry too much about it.
Oh, by the way, I want to congratulate everyone who did manage to write 50,000 or more words in November. You guys are my heroes!