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Have I ever mentioned to you about this lady I know? No? Well, let me tell you about her then. She is… she is… amazing. Her smile is so radiant that it can melt a man’s heart, even one that is as icy as mine, her laugh so full of life that it can make a man’s spirit bloom like a wild flower in spring, even one that is as barren as mine, and her eyes so captivating that it can drown a man’s soul…

So as her eyes gaze into mine I can feel my soul slowly drown in them, and as her laugh resonates through my ears I can feel my spirit bloom, and as she smiles at me with that smile of hers… damn… you know, the one that can melt a man’s heart. Except her smile is now very slight and subtle, so subtle that it is almost imperceptible to the naked eye, a smile which is meant only for me and me alone, a smile which I do not have to share with the rest of the world. Damn… can you even start to imagine what a smile like that can do to a man’s heart, especially one that is as frozen as mine? Huh, of course you can’t. Me neither. All this is nothing more than a dream, a fantasy as unreal as elves and dragons and goblins and whatever the hell you can come up with. And dreams which forever remain unfulfilled will always haunt you.

So that is why I need to stop thinking about her. No, I don’t expect you to understand it. Hell, I don’t even understand it myself. I just know this is something I need to do. Doesn’t make sense, does it? But nothing about our feelings ever makes sense anyway…

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What I dream about when I dream about writing

It’s time to face the truth. Writing on my blog is fun and a nice exercise, and I have gained some self-confidence and a lot of insights into myself because of it, but in the end, what I truly want is to start writing fiction and fantasy again. That is where my heart lies, and it is the main reason why I started writing in the first place. I’m not saying that I plan to stop with my blog anytime soon, but that I have been ignoring my dreams for too long now. When I dream about writing, I don’t dream about writing about myself and reiterating what happened to me.  Continue reading

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Musings on Inception

This has been a bitch to write! As I have mentioned in a previous post, I have been struggling for weeks to write this. It has undergone many transformations in the meantime. What I had originally set out to write turned out to be completely different than what I have actually written. But then, that’s the way it always goes, doesn’t it? Somehow it always ends up about being me, even if that wasn’t my intention in the first place…

A word of caution beforehand: it is of course quite impossible to discuss Inception in detail without revealing any spoilers. So if you haven’t seen the movie yet, you should refrain from reading any further.

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